{ CAGES } was my online journal for most of 2004. All the entries have now been archived in my new blog LIFE FOR BEGINNERS, available at http://kennymah.wordpress.com/ or http://kennymah.net/ --- which includes my earlier journals all the way from 2001.

A few excerpts...

Why Do We Always Hurt The Ones We Love?
There will be days, weeks and longer periods even when we won’t be together. Intimacy isn’t a touch or thoughts; it isn’t a constant presence. Maybe what it is how we deal with it when we are separated, maybe that’s true intimacy, maybe that’s how we know.

And if we get hurt along the way, maybe that’s fine too.

Then & Now
Nothing beats the realisation that yes, in this life, we are alone. We are just us, by ourselves. We have to be, to forge an authentic identity. But yet, we are never alone, not really, not unless we choose to be. There is so much love out there, no amount of pain or suffering can diffuse it.

Thing is, people change. We all do. Even when we don’t. Feelings and idea and our bodies especially. It’s aging and when we are fortunate enough, it’s even a bit of growing up we do.

We
I love you. I love finally being able to say I love you. I love that you knew I have been loving you even before I said it. I love that, despite struggling to find the perfect moment to say I love you, from planning a candle-lit dinner this weekend to conjuring up something in the midst of the restless masses, the perfect moment came anyway – last night, when I said I love you, and it came like thunder and it came like a whisper, and nothing could hold it back.